That's How I Am

       I realized that I have a very addictive personality. I attach to things so quickly and I have a hard time forgetting about them. And sometimes it worries me. I have a million bad habits that I know I will never get rid of and I really don't need anymore. I sometimes feel like I have to be very cautious of what I do because I don't want to become reliant on anything. I've suffered from things like that in the past and it terrifies me that I could go through the never ending cycle again. I am also like that with people. I become very reliant on them and I need to realize how stupid that is because you can't trust anyone. No matter how much people will get you to think they care, they really don't. Or they are too stupid to realize when they need to take action. I hope that if anyone ever needed me, the way that I've needed people, then I could be there for them and actually make a difference in their lives. 13 Reasons Why and How to Save a Life are like the books I worship. They are deep and really explain how to deal with people's dark side. Sometimes I wonder why I even bother having friends. It just seems like a pointless thing to deal with. All my friends do is gossip and listen to what everyone else thinks. I just can't comprehend why anyone would want to waste their time caring about what other ignorant people think. Whatever. Screw that. But I cant stop being bothered by it. Oh well... I'll just listen to some music to forget about it
"I don't get waves of missing you anymore; there more like tsunami tides, in my eyes.:
-Ed Sheeran U.N.I.