Regrets?

Oh my gosh. I can't believe I did that. I made out with my best friend who has a girlfriend. And it is a HE. I made out with a guy! I don't even like guys. What the hell just happened. He started dating her FOUR DAYS AGO. That's pathetic. What I did was pathetic. What if I just ruined our friendship? He was my best friend. Exactly a year ago we became best friends and its been great. We are supposed to hang out tomorrow.. I doubt he will want to do that. He hasn't texted me or anything. That happened an hour ago. Doesn't he want to talk about it? I do! I just need to know what he is thinking... he should be pissed at me. He said "look at what you did. Making me cheat." Of course he said it with a smile and we went back to kissing but I can't stop repeating those words in my head.. he was serious.. I have a feeling he was so serious. What if I like him more than a friend? What if I told him that and he told me no because he likes his girlfriend too much. He is going to push me away. Damn.. I think I'll go to bed and hopefully I won't feel like I'm going to throw up when I wake up in the morning. Its 12 fucking 30 at night. Yeah, I'm tired of thinking about it. I need to brush my teeth so I can get his spit out of my mouth. Ew . Actually, I enjoyed it. Oh no. That's not good. The first time I hang out with my friends in 2 months and I piss half of them off my being a hookup. Damn. Shit, shit, shit. No one will call me back. My poor slashed wrists. My poor loveless wrists. Goodnight, babe.