So Angry

I have never been so pissed in my whole fucking life. I just really need to vent this out right now. So on New Years Eve my cousin and I went to a party with our family. She is two years younger than me and had a boyfriend (although it changes every night). So I talked to this one guy a couple times that night and it wasn't that big of a deal. I don't even think we talked about anything interesting and my cousin was standing beside us although she didn't talk at all. A couple days later she told me this boy asked her for my number and she gave it to him. I didn't really care and I was trying to be nice so I texted him back. Well A WEEK LATER (just ONE week) he started to ask people if I liked him. Well when one of his friends, who knows I'm gay, asked if I liked him I said, "What?! Come on, you know me." So he went back and told that kid I was gay. Keep in mind none of my fucking family know or even think I'm gay. So he went and told my cousin that he stopped "talking" to me because I was gay. Well #1 we were NEVER "talking", he just kept texting me and #2 if he texted me three times and I never responded then wouldn't that make me the one who stopped texting him. Idiots. Anyway, my cousin decided to tell EVERYONE IMAGINABLE. My own fucking cousin, who I was closest to. She told my whole family, her friends, my friends, anyone who might know me, and anyone who would listen to her story. Now I'm afraid to even see my family because I don't want to hear the gay comments that they might have. Then my neighbor, who is in the same class as her, said she heard my cousin talking about how I was second choice to this boy but since she had a boyfriend, he decided he could settle for me. That probably hurt the worst. My best friend, who is related to me, saying shit like that. It just crushed me. So yesterday I was sitting in my room, feeling upset about all of this when she texted me. It said ... do you mind if me and jay "talk". Normally, I wouldn't give a shit but under these circumstances, it wasn't okay. So I didn't answer because I was so angry. And today, I was just walking out to the buses, just talking to a friend when she comes up behind me and taps on my shoulder. And I turned around and she was walking with that boy and I was so angry. So I said "are you fucking kidding me?!" And I rolled my eyes and walked away. I wanted to say... PIPE THE FUCK DOWN. (: But yeah.. my heart is broken. And by my own cousin too. Damn. She chose a boy over me. A boy. Wow. I'm just over it. I will just try my best to stay away from her and ignore the situation. Unless it gets thrown in my face or something. Fuck them. People suck. I'm still trying to find that one honest person that I can be okay with. Because I haven't met anyone like that in a long time. I'm losing hope for humanity, I think.