New Appointment.

My mom made me an appointment for therapy on Wensday. I'm so disappointed. Back in June, my mom found out I was cutting and I went to therapy about four times then told my mom I was "cured". She believed me and hasn't brought it up once until today. Last week, I told her a had Trechotrillomania, which is a disease where you pull out your hair. She didnt seem like it was a big deal. I wasn't too bothered about the new appointment because i felt like my mom kept my business between us and didn't tell all of her close friends. Until a couple minutes ago. I was using her phone to call my aunt when it beeped. I looked at it to see what the beep was for and i saw that one of her friends had sent her a text that said "Did you get an appointment?". My heart broke at that moment. I just feel so betrayed. Especially because the first time i went to therapy i specifically told her not to tell anyone. It is just so fucked up. And i feel so embarrassed. I wanna cry but i don't want her to see. It's so hard to fight back tears.