To The Boy Who Texted Me To Tell Me He Misses Me

Thank you. The fact that after about 4 months of not speaking and giving each other glares in the hallway that said I haven't talked to you in forever and I don't care, you texted me. And you said I miss you. Even though I only thought about you once because I had a dream about you.. I said it back. Because maybe I just missed feeling loved. You asked if we could hang out as a group again and I said no because I'm not ready to be around the people who didn't want to care about me. So you asked if I wanted to just hang out with you and that girl that never called me back when I tried to reach out to her even though she said she would. I told you maybe so we set it up for next Saturday. To be completely honest, I don't want to because I'm afraid things might go back to the way they were. I pulled away because things were awful and if it goes back to normal I'll be even more unhappy. So I'm faced with a hard decision here. Please try to understand. I can go and try to make things different and hope they will turn out better, or I can not go and leave things as they are, where I don't talk to you all, even of they are terrible. I guess I'll try to give you another shoot. After all, for a whole year you were my everything. I haven't forgotten that and I know you haven't either. Secretly I've always wanted to go back to that because I had never loved someone or been so devoted to someone more than I was with you.
"If I didn't know better, I'd follow you up the stairs. Stop saying those sweet things, you know I like to hear. The horns are blowing louder and they're destroying me"